nervousness

Wow. It's been a while since I posted. Dang. Hopefully I'll get better at that in the coming weeks!
So Michelle and I officially live together now. We have been in our lovely basement suite-type-thing together for about a week and a half. And it's awesome! My grandparents are upstairs and are amazing. They keep offering to buy us things and feed us and it's lovely. I like them a lot.
Michelle and I don't see each other an overwhelming ammount. She works in the evenings, and I'm usually in bed by the time she gets home. But she doesn't work today! Or tomorrow! So roomie bonding shall occur :)
But onto the real intent behind this post. I mean, updates on our lives are interesting, but I have other thoughts to get out.
I auditioned for the Greystone Singers yesterday. That's the auditioned choir at the UofS. And man oh man, was I ever nervous. And I couldn't figure out why. I've done lots of choir auditions in the past. Two every year in high school. One in the fall for choir and then again before Christmas for Tour Choir. Plus the singing tests so I could actually get a credit for choir. So I've done this lots of times. But yesterday was somehow different.
I think a lot of it had to do with the fact that Gerald (the director) had never heard me sing before. And the fact that it's been 2 years since I last sang in a choir. (Side note- 2 years! That means this is my 3rd year out of high school. Crazy! I feel old..) So I was a little rusty. And then there was the fact that my bf decided to hang around outside the door and listen. I am grateful for his support, but I was ridiculously nervous. I'm glad I didn't know he was there until I walked out.
But the feeling of my stomach turning in knots was weird for me. I'm usually a pretty confident person. I know I'm not the best singer or actor out there, but I just try to be myself in an audition and usually end up in the middle of the pack somewhere. Which I am fine with. As long as I can perform, I'm happy. But nerves are weird.
So I will find out today if I made the choir or not. I think I'm even more nervous to check that list than anything else. I don't like disappointment. But I'll let you know how it turns out!
So until then, have a stellar day. Keep smiling :)
~Jessica